Listen: I know everything is cyclical, and in the scheme of things I am actually very lucky. I know that everyday, I am closer and closer to becoming a teacher, the one and only thing I have ever wanted to do with my life.
I know that I have been down before and gotten myself back up and all that. I know.
But oh man. Lately.
The last week or so has been pretty gross. And by gross, I mean terrible.
This is why I haven’t been here lately and why if you’ve seen me in person recently, I haven’t been fully there either.
Where I have typically operated well under pressure, this is a new kind. This is a headaches and panic attacks in the middle of the night kind.
I found myself in an ugly spot Friday night. In a fight with one of the only people on this Earth who truly gets it, but our worlds collided and collided hard. I found myself in his kitchen, drinking water and reminding myself to breathe.
That's what my life is right now. Constant battles and tough times.
I have three weeks off of school to restart and recharge and just be okay.
I can get myself out of it, and I know that I will. Just one dumb little foot in front of the other.