Wednesday, November 24, 2010


Every year since I started blogging, I would slave over a list of all the specific things I was thankful for.

I had every intention of doing this again this year (especially now that the power is back after almost 24 hours and I have so so much to be thankful for) but I changed my mind.

I went to the movies with one of my closest friends tonight. The person I talk about almost the most, the person who I barely knew before this Summer and now we spend huge chunks of each day gossiping and giggling and speaking our own language of codes and nicknames.

At one point during the movie (I can't remember what point exactly because it happens at least 10+ times for every movie we see, which is a lot), something was said and we just looked at eachother in the dark and busted out laughing. 

This is what I'm thankful for.

Friends that understand each other on a level that can only be called instinctual.

People that geniunely, deeply understand me and that care just as much.

I'm thankful for movies, the ones that I watch with someone and the ones that I watch alone. Especially the ones that mean the world to me and I run to when I'm sad or disappointed.

I'm thankful for the dozens of books I have read this year (especially the three I read during the time without power). For having the ability to take me away from life when I need to step away and for generating discussion about topics that so badly need to be discussed. 

I'm thankful for the little things that get me through each day and the reminders in my life that I'm on the right track.

Lastly, I'm thankful for this year. For being difficult at points and perfect at others. For bringing me one step closer to becoming the person I know I am meant to be.

Happy Thanksgiving :)

Monday, November 22, 2010


I don't have to go to work today. It's snowing. 
I'm so excited I might cry and throw up.

Wednesday, November 10, 2010


A few weeks ago, my Wednesday night class ended. Freeing up Wednesday was amazing and it quickly turned into my "go out to dinner then sit and talk about life night". 

Tonight, we got teriyaki and this is what my fortune cookie said:

"Things are not always what they seem. It's not that bad!"

How perfect is that?

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

I promised.

I promised myself that I wouldn't abandon this when things turn ugly and sad. I promised that I'd write on the days when I feel bad without a set reason.

I don't want you to think that everything is always fine because it isn't, a lot of the time.

Things upset me, teaching is hard and a lot of the time, I feel like there is no one who is consistent or who cares enough to throw me a life raft when I feel like I'm drowning.

It's hard to get this feeling out of your head and the minute you let it creep in, it's here to stay for a long time.

So, I'm working on it. Constantly but right now, it's here and I just need to deal with it. 

I need to sleep it off and find the things that are nice and that make me happy. I need to remember that it's possible to feel better even if that seems a million miles away.

Sunday, November 7, 2010


This weekend has been full of movies and books.

Friday night, we left work, got chinese for dinner and made it in time to see Never Let Me Go (last week we saw It's Kind of a Funny Story and barely made it in time because of having to close at Work).

Never Let Me Go is dark and depressing. It's fantastic, but not the movie you want to see if you want to feel good about life. It's beautifully done and we both enjoyed it. 

The part we didn't enjoy however was when we were going to leave the movie theater and all the lights in the lobby were off and the doors were locked. Yeah, that's right, we were locked inside a movie theater. We outwitted the serial killer that was apparently trying to get us and made it out alive though.

We decided not to see Due Date and instead came home. We are going to see that tonight though so I'll talk about it later.

Yesterday we watched Pushing Daisies the first part of the day. Like Arrested Development, Pushing Daisies is another show that was taken off the air much too soon. Also, if you are into MBTI, it is the biggest NF show I've ever watched in my life. We decided to leave the house around 3 and one of our stops was Costco to buy books and eat dinner (what you don't go to costco to buy books and eat dinner? lame).

I bought Room by Emma Donoghue(I have been dying to read it and am currently #54 in line to get it at the library so I broke down and bought it). So far it is intense but amazing. I can't put it down. (In fact, I'm so into this story and the way it's told that I stopped reading "The Screwed Up Life of Charlie the Second" which is also dark and hilarious, to read this).

I also bought Squirrel Seeks Chipmunk by David Sedaris. Who is delightful and beyond hilarious. 

We then decided to watch Temple Grandin. I had already seen it but he hadn't. It's amazing. I can't stress how amazing this movie and her story is. Amazing enough that both of us liked it, which is rare. Claire Danes is one of my favorite actresses to begin with and this story already hits close to home because we work with 3 children have autism every day. 

My plans for the day are to finish up Room, work briefly on my art unit plan (my group is doing Chinese New Year, so it shouldn't be too awful) and then go see Due Date tonight.

Friday, November 5, 2010

Oh boy

I am definitely over this week. Things just have not been going my way. Work is difficult *to say the least* school is frustrating and seeminly pointless and I keep having disagreements with people that I never fight with. 

I have arthritis in my left arm and it has been hurting so bad recently. I hate having to constantly take some kind of pain reliever but I don't know what else to do. 

Things are just frustrating right now. But the finish line of this week is so so near. 

Tonight I'm see two movies. One that I'm so so excited to see and have been waiting for (the bummer about living where i do is that we rarely ever get movies that aren't widely released but we have an aweosme theater that tries to fix this) and the second is really not my choice but I love seeing movies in the theater so I'm content with going along for the ride.

The first is Never Let Me Go which is not only one of the best pieces of Dystopian Fiction (my favorite genre) that I've ever read but it's about clones and organ donation!

The second is Due Date which I'm pretty meh about but oh well.

Ok, that's all I've got.

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

What I'm Excited About

One of my favorite things ever is books (duh).
Another one of my favorite things is when you know a book is coming out and you get to wait for it. For me, the build up is the best. The first moment when you get that book in your hands is so so sweet.

A few examples that I can think of are definitely the wait and release of the 7th Harry Potter Book, MockingJay and Perfect Fifths.

The next time will definitely be when I get a copy of Bumped in my hands for the first time.

Megan McCafferty's books made my life make sense when I was in the gross phase otherwise known as junior high and high school. Her main character was funny, snarky, sad and different in all the best ways possible.

I was so sad when that series was over, it felt like saying goodbye to an old friend but knowing that I'm going to meet a new friend, one who is probably a whole lot different but still just as good is one of the best feelings in the world (one of, not THE, considering that getting my student loans paid off magically or meeting Anderson Cooper would always probably win).

*The point of this blog is to not only win an ARC but to warn you that when this book comes out in April, you probably won't be hearing from me until it's done*

Monday, November 1, 2010


It's November!

Which means, that it's that blog everyday challenge thing. Which I've pretty much already given up on. 

It's sad when you build up a day so much and then it ends up significantly different than how you thought it would. That's what Halloween was like for me. 

But now that it's November, it is so dangerously close to the Christmas season!

I love all things Christmas, I love red starbucks cups, Christmas crafts, christmas music, twinkly lights, all of it.