Tuesday, October 26, 2010

The powers that be.

This week at work, the kids get out at 12:40 instead of 3:40. This leaves us with three extra hours, Just in case you didn't do the math.

I got into work yesterday to find out that neither one of my site coordinators thought about a plan or the fact that we might need you know, an idea as to what we are going to do with the children.

Oh yeah, add that to the fact that the power kept going on and off and we had 74 kids (which is 15ish more than normal and also put us 14 children over ratio. Oh and we also only ordered snack for 50, no big deal right?).

The day was stressful and annoying and just plain ugly. 

But then, by the powers that be. My Monday night class was canceled and instead of having to work through this gross day and then go to school, I got to go to my friend's house.

We made spaghetti and we made a plan and we talked about life and our job and how so weirdly similar we are yet so so different.

We talked for six hours straight and we didn't turn on the tv once (which is rare for us) and I just feel so much better now.

It's amazing how much better it is being miserable when you have someone to be miserable with.

Sunday, October 24, 2010


For Halloween this year, I am being Fancy Nancy.


Sunday, October 3, 2010

Control your mind or let your mind control you

 {found here}

In October of last year, a few horrible, sad, stressful things happened to me. 

The person who was supposed to be my best friend, confidant and everything else decided to make a shitty choice and move out. Putting space between us (both metaphorically and literally) that we would never learn how to deal with.

At first, my entire world came to a screeching halt. Sometimes, I still can't make sense of the pieces that were handed to me without any directions on what to do with them. 

Ever since this happened, I have been working on making the choice. I can either control my mind or let my mind control me. I can either decide to deal with this hands on, 100% without holding back or I can hide away and wait for the universe/god/whatever higher being you believe in to tell me what to do and where to go next in my life.

I have been trying so hard to control my mind, to not let the darkness creep in and to do my best with a situation that, a year later, still gets the best of me.

But I believe in my heart that in order to heal effectively, in order to build healthy, strong relationships of any type, sometimes I need to let my mind control me just slightly. I need to give a name to the emotions that I'm feeling and I need to communicate it with the people around me. 

So, last October, things were bad. This October, things are going to be so much better. I just know it.