Tuesday, August 31, 2010

On Being Disappointed

This is a blog about a real life situation with a real life person. I hate talking about people who don't know that this blog exists for the simple reason that I would die of shame if they ever found out.

There is someone I go to school with, someone who I considered a really good friend of mine, someone I look up to and admire for working hard to take care of her family and still go to school at night.

But then a few weeks ago, she dropped the bombshell that she is getting a divorce. My heart broke into a million pieces because I don't want her or her kids to hurt. I can't imagine how hard it would be to continue school and deal with this.

Then my heart broke a little more because she told me that the root of this divorce was her new boyfriend.

I felt like I had been punched in the stomach. It wrecked my heart that this person who I adore to the ends of the earth, who I want to grow up and be like, had an affair.

I'm not passing judgment or saying that the divorce is all her fault, I just want to talk about how much it upset me to hear that someone I thought I knew so well could do something like this.

It sucks being disappointed in someone. 

It sucks even more that I have to continue going to school with her and am trapped in a setting where voicing my opinion is not appropriate or welcomed. I want to tell her how let down I am in her. How it drives me crazy that she's not fighting for her family or even stopping to think about what is best for her kids. 

So, that's where I am with this situation. Disappointed and completely let down by her and the universe for letting this happen.

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Weekend Wrap-Up

Oh weekend. You have been amazing. Except for the whole dropping the phone in the ocean part. But I'm okay with being without a phone until Tuesday, right? Right :/

Friday night we went out to dinner and saw the play version of footloose. We even got dressed up. I have pictures but they are on my broken phone. boo.

Dinner was fantastic and we got done early so we walked around the waterfront and went on the observation deck that is right on the water. It was awesome because we talked about books and life but even more awesome because someone had already been up there and had written "TUPAC" in big pink chalk letters. Tupac? Really?

The play was nice, I'm not really a play person. Mostly because I LOVE talking through things and have a lot to say all the time. 

We came home to find that the power is out so we hung out in the dark and slept on the floor because we were pretty convinced that a killer was lurking outside. 

Then we got up at 5:45 to drive 3 hours to the beach. I slept almost the entire time. No lie. I'm so much fun on car rides.

Then we got to forks. Which was really cool, if Twilight is something that you are into. 

But we did see some deer!

Then we hiked 23083 miles. Carrying all of our belongings *not an exaggeration at all* but after mile 23082, we finally got a glimpse of the beach!

The most exciting part of this trip was the fact that there was something that looked JUST LIKE the four toed statue from Lost.


We fell asleep at the beach and now the back of my legs is so super sun burnt and uncomfortable. For real. 

Also, I can't get a new phone until Tuesday, I'm not sure I'm going to survive until then. 

My plan for the rest of the day is to relax and read. I'm reading "By the River  Piedra I sat Down and Wept" by Paulo Coelho and it's amazing. I'll talk more about it later.

Alright, I'm off. Catch you all in a few days :)

Thursday, August 26, 2010


holy moly.
The last week has been amazing. I went shopping on Monday, had a sleepover on Tuesday, last night I went with one of my favorite people to see The Kids Are All Right afterwards we got dessert and played the "would you rather" game. Today, we got up and helped a mutual friend move into her new classroom (she is teaching 1st grade this year and her classroom is the sweetest place on Earth, no lie). Tomorrow night, we are getting dressed up to go see Footloose and on Saturday, we are getting up and going to La Push. Well, to be honest, the boys are going to surf and swim and I'm going to sit on
the beach and take pictures and read.

It has been the best alternative to the crazy weeks leading up to this but now I'm at the point where I can't imagine having to return to the chaos of the real world. Not having classes at night has been so relaxing and perfect. Come the middle of September, I'm going to need a lot of reassurance that going back to school is the right thing to do (I'll let you decide if I'm kidding or not).

Monday, August 23, 2010

I'm back!

Hi loves!

Summer camp is over and school is over for now and I am officially back. 

Things have been beyond crazy the past nine weeks but we made it through and I'm alive to tell countless hours worth of stories about kids and parents and coworkers. 

This morning was the first morning in pretty much forever that I didn't have to get up early(!!!). 

Yesterday a few of my favorite friends and former coworkers had a picnic and went for a hike. It was amazing to be able to stay up late and hang out knowing that I wouldn't have hell to pay in the morning. 

This Summer did not turn out at all how I thought it would. School was harder than I thought and it was less than awesome having to make time to do things on my lunch break and the few hours I would have between work and school. My coworkers for the most part were amazing and just what my life needed. 

It's insane when you first meet people, you never know what role they are going to play in your life. 

Life's like that you know?

I'll leave you with pictures from our hike yesterday and just let me say, it's going to be so nice to have time to blog on a regular schedule. 


Saturday, August 14, 2010

Just in case you missed it

Just in case you missed it, the other 23832 times I've talked about it, I don't do change well.

It definitely bums me out when things will be going well and there is a routine that I'm comfortable with and that makes me feel stable and happy with life. But eventually, that comes to an end and I'm left in a slump and feeling unsure how to help myself feel better.

What I'm trying to tell you is that as hectic and stressful as everything has been with work and school, I love the way things are right now and the friends that I've made and it's breaking my heart that in a week it's all going to come to an end.

I hate worrying about whether or not I will still see people. I hate change and the emotions it brings. 


Wednesday, August 4, 2010


I bet you had no clue that you were friends with a unicorn.

See, a few weeks ago I got my hair cut. Now, I have bangs. Bangs that I have no clue how to style.

Today, i gave up. Put on a headband and embraced my inner unicorn. If this doesn't get me a boyfriend, I don't know what will.


Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Don't you wish you were me

Sometimes I worry about how much you guys want to live my life. I mean, it's full of really awesome moments.

Like the time I did a group project with an adult who has a small child trapped inside there body (seen here), The time when we accidentally fed the kids moldy bagels at work (here), the time when I did 230823 things in one day (here), and most importantly when I lost a friend because I talked crap about Avatar (here).

But today something happened that was even more exciting and better than all that other stuff. Today i got these in the mail, ON THE SAME DAY!

BILLS FOR $15,000 and I still have two more years of school to go.

I know you want to trade lives guys, but there's no way I'm letting go of my awesome life. Especially now that I owe the government more money than I've made the entire time I've been alive.

Monday, August 2, 2010

Yeah, about that.

{Found here}

Aside from losing a friend over Avatar (see here),  Things in my little corner of the world have been difficult and frustrating beyond belief. 

Things have been so overwhelming for me and I'm not even sure why. Problems that would normally not upset me in the least have been upsetting me more than they should. I just want people to work harder and do better and when that doesn't happen, it just really upsets me.

It's been a week of high highs and low lows but I know I only have 3 weeks left working with the most amazing people on the planet (well, most of them are at least) and I'm trying so hard to make the most of each and every moment. 

But I'm here and I'm surviving and I know that this is just another chapter in the half decent book that is my life.

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Sunday Sweets Volume 7

Hi. I'm mixing it up a little bit and instead of posting things I've found online that I like, here are some sweet moments from my life lately...

*all photos are taken from my cell phone and snatched from my mobile uploads folder on facebook.

Every night that I have class, the sprinklers come on at 6:48 and it makes me so happy inside. On Thursday, we had our break at the same time and we sat outside and ate our dinner right by them. It was perfection.

Look at how perfect and polka dotty those clouds are.

I know this one is blurry but last Sunday my coworker and I (who is so perfect and awesome and quickly becoming one of my favorite people ever) went to dinner and a movie. His fortune cookie said "Let the light of your soul shine forth for others to benefit". Mine said something lame about financial hard times and making it through, practically implying that I don't have to worry about money because I'm going to be living with my parents forever. No lie.

Last week we had a camp out and favorite coworker hung up these lights across the tent and it made the tent glow purple (which happens to be my favorite color) and it was amazing.
Last week in my social studies class, we had a class auction (we are learning about multi-age classrooms and different strategies we could use to teach life skills, an auction and classroom money system being one of them) and I bought this awesome, wonderful crown that I proceeded to wear the entire rest of the night. I got out bid on a peter pan hat and sword though :(

In math this week, we learned about place value and how to show place value concepts using tiles and beans. Being the mature, future teacher that I am, I made a castle for my bean people.

Another one of the things we did in math class was had to make a home for a number family. We made a castle, including a pegasus.

lastly, this is my favorite thing on Earth. It's a note about how I am a good teacher. The part that makes my heart sing is how "sometimes, she is very very silly". This makes life worth it.