Monday, June 28, 2010

Today's Conversations

Work was too much to handle today.  I don't even want to talk about it yet.

Here are some things that happened today that made it slightly worthwhile though.

one of my new favorite kids: Miss Whitney, I really like you hair cut. A lot. I really really like it. And I'm not just saying that because I want another muffin.

Me: Work today was crappy.
Shane: Are you going to cry about it or comfort bake about it?
Me: Neither. I'm too tired. 
Shane: No crying or baking? Wow. It must have been really bad.


Today the kids were accidentally given moldy bagels for snack. Don't worry, we caught it in time and I had 230832 kids spit half eaten bagels into my hand but while this was happening the cafeteria was SO LOUD.


Me: It's so loud in here. If there was an emergency, there is no way they would hear us.
favoritecoworkerever: IF there was an emergency? They were just eating toxic bagels. That's an emergency.
Whiny kid passing by: Aw man! Toxic bagels again for snack. We have those evvverryyddaaayy. 

Oh man. This just happened RIGHT NOW.

My dad while watching intervention: Oh man, he's so messed up. I bet they are going to send him to the Betty White clinic.... BETTY FORD! I meant Betty Ford. I'm never going to live that one down.

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Sunday Sweets Volume 6

In an effort to try and make myself feel better and more inspired, I've been searching etsy high and low for prints that would brighten up my space. I was planning on posting prints from multiple shops but then I found this shop and can't wait for my next paycheck to buy a few (a few means 4 or more right?).

The shop is called thewheatfield and can be found here

Here are a few of my favorite ones:

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Saturday, June 26, 2010

About

I had every intention of spending time outside this weekend and doing something awesome but now that it's actually here and I have the option to sit inside in my pajamas and enjoy some quiet time, you better damn well believe that I don't plan on getting dressed until Monday morning.

Yesterday, I got my hair cut. I wasn't sure if I liked it at first because I don't do change well but now that I don't have to do anything to it before I walk out the door, I love it. I cut FOUR inches off. That's a lot for me.

Ignore the idiot look on my face. I'm horrible with looking cute on command.




I'd also like to say hi to my new followers. Sorry you've found me at a time when all I do is work, go to school, do homework or watch episodes of Daria in my pajamas. I'm so glad you're here and I'll work on being a little more entertaining for you.

I'm planning on sometime in the next few months, making an "about me" page. So tell me, is there anything you'd like to see/know once I get around to this?

Friday, June 25, 2010

Friday Blanks

Oh my goodness. It's Friday.  There are no words for how excited I am. This week has been killer. So much in fact, that I talked to my boss yesterday about cutting back my hours a little bit because I'm having a hard time being gone 14 hours a day. It will all work out and it's only for 8 more weeks. Just thank you for being patient because I know blogging will be a little sporadic between here and the end of the Summer.


Now on to the blanks... There are found here every week. 







1.  If I could choose my last meal it would be   chicken nuggets, bbq sauce, mashed potatoes with brown gravy, some kind of dinner roll and diet dr. pepper.

2.  My favorite person to share a meal with is  my family, or my best friend Maggie, or my other best friend Shane   because,     I think some of the best times are had around the dinner table. Especially when you spend that time in the kitchen working on a meal then you get to eat it together. Love it.

3.  The best meal I've ever had was    I had this meal at a restaurant once that was chicken that was marinaded in some kind of garlic sauce and then served with red and yellow peppers and mashed potatoes. Oh my goodness, it was perfect.

4.  The one food that makes me feel instantly better when I'm having a bad day is  either chicken nuggets or mashed potatoes and brown gravy. Those are my comfort foods.

5.  My absolute specialty in the kitchen is     cupcakes. OR twice stuffed potatoes. I got this recipe from the kraft food magazine that is SO good. It's time consuming to make but amazing. 

6.  The city that has the best food is    Seattle because I'm beyond biased and in love with Seattle.   and my favorite restaurant there is      Mae Phim. Seriously the best thai food in this area. and it's cheap(ish).
7.  My favorite healthy snack is  peppers. I love to just slice up peppers and eat them. 

8.  In my opinion the nationality which has the best food is  (I'm stealing Lauren's answer because it's SO true)    Asian.

9.  If I could learn to cook anything in the world (and be really good at it!) I'd choose   fried rice, I've tried. I just can't do it.

10.  The most outrageous dessert I've ever had was    TRUE STORY! Within the last 5 years or so (Don't judge me!) my mom made a chocolate pie that was sent straight from heaven. It was chocolate pudding and some kind of almost chocolate mousse and whipped cream and sprinkles and you would not believe how delicious it was. I ate so much, I literally felt sick for 3 hours. We still refer to this event as "the great chocolate pie incident".



Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Work LOL

The theme for the first week of summer camp is "Around the world". One of our scheduled activities was to play red light, green light in Spanish.

My coworker and I decided that it would be easier to just play in English. As soon as I said to him that we should just "Play in english" one of our girls threw herself on the ground, cried with full on tears and said "This isn't even fair, I don't know how to play that game IN ENGLISH!".


Tuesday, June 22, 2010

YES!

I'm having a really really good day.

Like, it's not even bothering me that I had my first math class tonight and it was super overwhelming and I'm going to have lots of homework and no clue when I will ever have time to do it.

Or that I'm tired and have sleeping problems and have to be up early.

All I know is that for the first time in such a long time, I'm feeling great about right now and even more so about the future.


Yes!

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Sunday Sweets Volume 5?

Sorry for posting this so late in the day. I had to pry myself away from Seattle and I'm also gearing up for the first day of Summer Camp tomorrow (which is a whole other post in itself)

My Sunday Sweets for this week consists of 2 moments rather than actual things and 1 picture I found that just exploded my heart.

1) Shane's guest post which was amazing. I honestly expected to wake up this morning and read one of my embarrassing moments or about how I like to rap dr. dre songs when we get stuck in traffic. Instead, he took the angle of talking about how we have to really work at something. Love love love. Maybe I'll talk him into posting once a month or something. 

2) We got up early so I could make a cake for him to take to his father's day events and a cake to take to my family's father's day brunch. I don't even have words to describe it. It was just the sweetest moment of us listening to Etta James and Billie Holiday and I was frosting cakes which is one of my favorite things to do and it was so peaceful and the perfect moment before the chaos starts tomorrow. 

3) THIS PICTURE. Holy hell. This picture is too much for me to handle. I took it from the post secret fan page found here. Apparently this is when Leonard Nemoy's son visited the set of the enterpise. Love it. 





Saturday, June 19, 2010

Turtles

Hi. 

I'm in my happy place. Snuggled in bed with my best guy friend. We have plans to watch movies all day and we might walk down the street to pick up food but chances are, we won't get out of bed the rest of the day.
I'm writing to say that if I could, I would move to Seattle and live like this forever. But I have work on Monday and school on Tuesday and that's just not in the cards right now. Maybe one day.

I was in the kitchen last night when S yelled for me to come here and see this picture because, in his words "it looks just like you!" 

Want to know what picture he was talking about?



I'm trying to peer pressure him into posting here tonight (S, not the turtle that apparently resembles me). We shall see. 

Friday, June 18, 2010

Because it's life and it's real.



I came home from work today and cried.

I'm frustrated beyond belief and feel constantly misunderstood. 

I feel like when I'm making progress and coping with my anxiety as best as I can, I get knocked down a notch or ten. 

Life isn't fair sometimes.

I promised I'd write when things get less than awesome and right now is one of those times.

I don't like when people expect me to play a certain role and I can't play it. I don't like being the one always on the outside. I have strong guards set up for a reason and I'm disappointed with myself for letting them down.

So, I'm spending the weekend in Seattle with my favorite boy to deal and cope and recharge.

Feel free to text, email, whatever. 

 

Frriiddaayy!

Hi Guys.

It's Friday!!

It amazes me that Summer camp AND Summer quarter start on Monday. I could definitely use another week or two. But that's life. You just gotta roll with it.

Let's do some fill in the blanks before I have to go to work. As always, brought to you by the lovely Miss Lauren (whose amazing blog is found here)


 
1.  The best thing about being in school was/is  probably the people I have met. Now, this isn't entirely the truth because when I was getting my AA, I didn't take time to know pretty much anyone but my teaching program is different and these people have become like my family. 

2.  The worst thing about being in school was/is  homework. I feel I spend a huuugee amount of my time doing just busy work which stresses me out to no end because I don't have enough hours in the day to do busy work. If that happens this Summer, I am going to be devastated because I plan on doing all my homework on my lunch/ other breaks and at night.

3.  My favorite subject in school was/is  psychology. 

4.  One subject I wish I could have mastered/would like to master is     math. I am horrible at math. Even basic addition. I am taking a math class this Summer and I'm terrified.

5.  I could never get tired of studying    psychology. Mainly developmental psychology.

6.  The most memorable teacher I had was    in elementary school, it would definitely be Mr. Grant who was my 4th grade teacher. He was just amazingly funny and patient and just an awesome teacher. He's now a principal and in my dream world, one day I'll be able to teach at his school. 

7.  If I could choose between going to school for the rest of my life or working for the rest of my life, I'd choose  luckily I found a way around this question and will be technically "going to school for the rest of my life" while working. But I also plan on getting my Masters Degree in Literacy in the next few years so even though I'll be teaching, I'll never really be out of school myself.



I'm not going to brag but holy moly. Did anyone watch the Laker game? I think I was going to give myself a panic attack. But those last few sweet seconds when Kobe got the ball and he ran down to the end and just knew that they had done it. If I could drink that up and live in that moment forever, I would.

Have a wonderful weekend everyone and send me some good thoughts this way as I will be stuck in training for work :(

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Tuesday.

Hi. 

I'm sorry to be annoying and post multiple times in one day (I always feel annoying when I do that). But I have a few things to talk about and I feel like if I don't do it now, these thoughts will magically vanish from my head.

First off, last week I won a blog award. How cool is that?
The award was from one of my favorite blogging friends, Jenna from Legally Brunette. 



Second, I hate talking about grades because it usually stresses me out and makes me feel awkward but I found out today that I got a 4.0 Spring quarter and not only am I on top of the world but this is just such a nice reminder that all the daily crap and stress is worth it and the finish line is somewhere near.


Now, I'm off to finish watching the laker game (I may live in Washington but I was born in LA and laker pride is in my blood).

Truth

Being an adult means canceling your zoo date to go to first aid training for work.  For real. 

Monday, June 14, 2010

The one where I cried some more

Dear Mrs. C's class,

I'm sorry I didn't get a chance to say good bye to you today. You were all out at field day and I didn't want to take you away from having so much fun. Plus, I don't think my heart could handle saying good bye to  each and every one of you. It was better this way, for me at least.

I want you to know that I will always carry you around in my heart. That when I went back to class to get my stuff and to write you a note on the whiteboard, I cried hard. I thought about my first day there and how sweet and curious you all were. I thought about how much you taught me about teaching and about living. 

You taught me how to love to the very depths of my heart. What it feels like to stay up at night and worry about someone other than myself. You taught me how to create lesson plans that I truly believe in and to stay calm and teach on.

I don't worry about any of you next year because you are all so so ready to learn and to blossom. 

So, I'm sorry I didn't say good bye but just know that when I have a classroom of my own one day, I'll include art for kids just like you, Brayan and I'll be silly just for you Isabelle and Austin. I'll be patient and kind when homework doesn't come back signed because you taught me that some parents go to school at night like I do, Atlanta.  

Thank you so much for welcoming me into your classroom. I am going to miss the hell out of each and everyone of you.

xoxo
Miss Whitney 

Friday, June 11, 2010

That was then.

Lately I've been thinking a lot about what my life was like this time last year. 

I was getting ready to graduate with my AA, the people in my life were the same people that had been there for the last few years. Things were consistent and  there were so many new possibilities on the horizon.


Fast forward to right now.  


So many people have come and gone. The person I thought would always be there has moved out and on. I haven't talked to this person in 6 months. But that's okay. 

We got out of class early last night and my best friend Maggie wanted to meet one of my other really close friends. We drove to his house and sat outside and watched the Seattle ferry. I listened to them talk about personality types and gossiped about other people they both know (the world is so amazingly small some times) and I thought to myself, how weird is this moment? It's these two people who are the rocks in my life. These two people who this time last year, I had just started working with one and didn't even know the other.  


Congrats to cohort 24, we have finished our first year of teaching school. We have survived some of the most boring, tedious and painful classes. We have taught and learned and become a small family with one thing in common, in two short years we will become classroom teachers.  I love the hell out of each and every one of you.

 





Thursday, June 10, 2010

I am a stress case and also, last night was weird.



Remember in March when I had to write an evaluation for the world's worst teacher and I had a hard time doing it because I'm an extroverted feeler and stuff like that wrecks my heart. (If you don't remember, go here).

Anyway, I'm writing evaluations today and it's still stressing me out but I just wanted to bring this up because I'm including the line "It would greatly benefit us as students and the reputation of this program if this professor would learn how to treat adults with respect". BAM.

Also, last night I went to a tiki bar and it was the weirdest/most hilarious experience of my life.


Lastly, next Tuesday is my last full day off from work and school until August. When I think about this, I get such bad anxiety, I can't breathe. So, I'm just going to disassociate myself from this situation completely and pretend it's not happening. Ahhh. Much better.

There are no fill in the blanks for tomorrow so maybe I'll write something clever. I'll probably just end up posting pictures of baby animals instead. 

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

The one where I live in my head

Dear Whitney,

Stop being so Ni. Your introverted intuition function makes it so you eternally live in your own little dream world so often that sometimes you miss HUGE chunks of classroom lecture. Such huge chunks in fact that you completely miss the details of your final this coming Thursday.

Don't stress. Just keep calm and teach on.

Love Love Love,
Whitney


p.s. I got one of those neat little facebook badges so now we can totes be friends on facebook.

Sunday, June 6, 2010

We interrupt finals week to bring you..

BABY ANIMALS!

Yesterday, instead of being stuck inside all day finishing up journal entries and doing take home tests (you know, the responsible thing to do) I took a break to go feed some baby ducks.





Moral of the story: It is just as important to enjoy the sunshine and feed the baby ducks as it is to stay inside and finish your homework and study for finals. I can say that, I'm almost a teacher. 

Saturday, June 5, 2010

Final Countdown

{Found here}

Guess what!
Two days and two finals are all that stand between me and 11 whole days off from school (but not work, no sireee).
Of course, the day I will be spending inside putting the finishing touches on my practicum homework and working on my take-home test is the same day that it is bright and sunny outside.

Oh well. This is just good practice for the Summer when I will be seeing lots of sunny days from inside.
I'm just going to put on Alice in Wonderland and get to work. 

I'm also meeting with my new host teacher on Monday! She teaches fourth grade at the same exact elementary school that I went to. How cool is that? I'm excited to be working back there but terrified to teach fourth grade. I'm just hoping she is half as cool as my host teacher right now. I completely adore her and her teaching style.

Have a wonderful weekend and do something awesome so I can live vicariously through you.


Friday, June 4, 2010

Welcome Back Friday

It feels like it has been so long since I've done one of these. But, considering that I'm in the process of kinda sorta planning my first real vacation/adventure, I think these questions are perfect!

1.  My dream vacation would be   right now would definitely be a few quiet peaceful days on the beach. Just me and maybe a few close friends, a lot of relaxing and reflecting and did I say quiet?

2.  The best trip I've ever taken was   
my family took a roadtrip to San Diego a few years ago and it was amazingly fun. The drive is so boring so we quickly slipped into that attitude where we were just plain crazy and immature and had way too much fun.
3.  The most important items to take on a road trip are    snacks, music and a camera!

4.  The next trip I'm looking forward to is   I am trying really hard to plan a trip at the end of this Summer as a reward to myself for surviving my first quarter of teaching school and for making through working 8 hour days and going to school for 4 hours at night. My stops would include Corvallis, Oregon, Raton, New Mexico and a few others to spend time with some of my dearest friends and meet up with some of the best people I've known since I started my adventure in blogging 8 years ago. 

5.  If I had to pick one CD to listen to for a long road trip it would be    ABBA's Gold. Without question.

6.  The biggest disaster I've ever encountered while traveling  was      I don't think I have ever encountered a disaster. Knock on wood.

7.  My favorite traveling memory is    I think the first few minutes of any road trip. I love feeling the excitement in the air and knowing how many awesome things are ahead.


Thursday, June 3, 2010

SOS

I am currently sitting in the most boring class on Earth.

Seriously.

Send help.

Or post something interesting for me to read instead of wasting away here.

We are supposed to be learning about how to write a grant in my technology class today but instead of talking about anything useful, he is talking about how Oprah doesn't have to go through the same process that teachers do. I shit you not.

Is the help you sent here yet?

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

The one where she wants to quit her job.

*Look away Constance.

I want to quit my job.

I want to quit my job so bad it hurts.
I have visions of how I would do it. Maybe ice some cupcakes that say "I can't do this anymore. ever" or "it's not worth it to me".

When I think about having to work eight hour days and then go to school at night, I want to puke. 
See, here's why.

1) I'm ridiculously underpaid. Seriously. I'm 7 quarters away from my freaking teacher certification AND my endorsement in special education (focusing on AUTISM!) and my fresh out of high school coworkers make more than I do.

2) My opinions, ideas and concerns are disregarded by 95% of my coworkers. I try my damn hardest to fake that this doesn't bother me. But it completely does.

3) I am eternally holding someone's hand. ETERNALLY. When someone complains because they don't like their hours, they come to me to bitch, when someone can't decide if we should play in the gym instead of outside, it's me they come to.  For the love of Justin Timberlake, make decisions on your own, do YOUR job. Stop relying on your ass kissing abilities and DO YOUR JOB. 


I can't give everything 100% anymore and it's so hard to give something even 90% when I just don't feel like it deserves it.

This is the point where you tell me to shut my mouth and suck it up. Make enough to pay off the credit cards I had to run up to pay for Summer quarter and deal with it. That in the end, in 7 short quarters, I will be a real teacher and have a classroom of my own and not have to look back.

Tell me it's worth it.




p.s. I just tried to pay my tutition online and they want a $72 fee to pay by credit card. I'm done with everyone. ugghh.