Let me give you some background:
I graduated high school in 2007. I graduated with my AA in developmental psychology in 2009. I will graduate with my BA in Elementary Education with my endorsement in Special Education in 2012.
School is the only thing I have known since I was 5 years old.
Add this to the fact that I was born an anxious soul that is hypersensitive and easily overwhelmed. School is the only place that mellows me out. School is the only place that has consistently made sense to me.
Lately, I've been feeling like I'm not taken seriously. Like my ideas hold no merit because I'm young and unexperienced.
I learned how to be funny to fit in to a world that constantly upsets me. I learned to make people laugh to hide the fact that inside, I am usually on edge.
It breaks my heart that for some reason, my classmates have been misintrepreting this for not being serious or ready to take on teaching.
It upsets me to no end that they feel it's okay to constantly poke fun at the fact that I'm the youngest, that I'm the most anxious, that I'm not like them.
I hate the fact that this environment that has been set up to be the most supportive and encouraging environment has now been turned to a place where I feel like I am constantly having to prove myself.
If I would have known that it's more socially acceptable and respected to be 40, taking life to serious and not just now starting my BA, I would have waited.
I thought I was doing the right thing, the only thing I've ever known how to do.